Not just an ordinary smile

I am just sitting here thinking about what really makes me happy these days. Well, I thought of your face. More than that though. Your smiling face.




It amazes me. I am thinking, like, I used to watch football, play sports - basically had a totally different life before you. You have really done a number on me, I thank you for that. Now, I have steady prayer, scripture, real conversations, board games, visiting friends, a partner to go to church with, I'm actually road biking, mountain biking, I'm actually running, no more TV or addictions to the internet, instead I get to have long phone conversations with you or seeing new friends (from your life - BC), I no longer dwell in my sadness, not to say I do not have sad times now, but I can share them with someone I can trust. I have so many pictures, notes; my hand hates to be alone. But back to your smile... I wish I could express what it does to me. It brightens my day, it drives me crazy, it makes all things seem small. Humm, sounds like God has something to do with this huh? You support me, serve me, live in "it" with me, get excited with me, PAUSE, there you are calling... (smile)

Dealing with struggle

I have to say that I have the best person in my life to share things with, ashley sartaine! I love her. We had a tough afternoon dealing with jobs, motivation and other tough stuff. Anyway, we met back up at Sunergos around 4 and were able to talk about what we each dealt with and felt hurt about. It was right, good and a blessing. Its a blessing because when sharing with her I can really tell all, from my heart. There are just some people you cannot get deep with and I am very happy to say Ashley is my person where I can. It is very God honoring to work thru circumstances that effect each other and its amazing how it works when we both are dealing with sin. It realy shows God's control in our lives. I am so blessed that God created someone like her to, one, deal with me, and two, be so sacrificial, in her time, in her finances, and in her spirit. Its awesome! God's awesome and Ashley is my "keeps."