Sunday, November 16, 2008

The Master Cleanse

Ashley and I are cleansing and fasting for 10 days. We are currently on day 5. It has been a real awakening. From a monster headache that revealed big sin in our relationship to never really feeling hungry and spending intimate time with God. Reflecting on his love for us has been a real eye opener. Its really cleaning me out, literally, like it is suppose to. Removing all toxins and disease.

I hope to add new posts daily about what I am going thru. So look for them. And please go to this link to learn more about the cleanse.

Fighting Perfection

Today was tough, I woke up feeling depressed. Basically feeling like I am performing badly in my life, that nothing is going right. Work is tough and slow; my apartment feels messy, unholy; I don't feel worthy of being around anyone. As service was going on today (normally feeling joy) I felt shame and guilt for my life. Tons of lies running through my head. I rebelled against everone, leaving church without really saying hello to anyone, even didn't really talk with Ashley. It was sad. After leaving church on my way home, I didn't want to go home, I needed a place to rest, talk to God. I knew I needed to get to the office sometime today to gather my thoughts for this upcoming week but didn't want to go there because work was really depressing me. But I went any way. Ashley asked if she could join me and yes, I needed some encouragement. She was great. Really spoke truth to me and pointed me to the Cross. Reasurring that what I was feeling were lies. After some prayers and cries out to God and scripture I was finding myself energized, rejoicing, joking again. It was truly God in my office. Ashley prayed over the office to be full of Gods spirit. She prayed for God to heal, for us to seek him. He was present. I am one of the most blessed guys I know to be best friends with Ashley Sartaine. To get that sister encouragement and feeling someone cares so much for me is wonderful.

I wanted to be in a good place to serve the kids tonight, and if it were not for this I would have been a sloth all day and just went to be a body to the kids, instead I was very glad to be there and be with the kids. Ashley encouraged me with this, "Cliff I have been wanting to tell you for a while, you are so great with the kids, especially sweet to the little girls." (paraphraing of course) This really made the night for me and as the night went on I kept re-energizing.


Journal to blog?

Can we keep everyone updated with our activity? I think so.

We have so much going on as a couple its sick. Its awesome, its amazing. First, I have to give props to our Father, God. Thank you for all you've done in working on us and connecting people to allow us to meet. Thank you for showing us the many things we have in common (athletic, mtn and road biking, running, camping, hiking, traveling), but most important for our foundation in Christ.

We hope to show you from now on where God places us and his amazing road he takes us on.

Peace to all who read this and please comment anything you want (prayer requests, life stories, etc). We will be checking this daily and probably update it more than I think.